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Holy shit

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 22:04:02 GMT

the one thing i've been neglectng to tell my friends is that shes been doing it a lot now. and today. at least i know they love me when they hit me. being able to watch the marks come and go.

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 18:49:12 GMT

View Poll: How would you describe me?

Anger

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 18:47:06 GMT

For those angry people like me check out this site http://www.apa.org/pubinfo/anger.html

Is the anger mmine own or is it something i have adaped from my parents and people around me. how can we really define anger like theres no set limit for it. theres no regular pattern.

Day6

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 00:38:36 GMT

So i'm getting tick at posting everyday. mayb it'll be every secoday.so tonght was JA it was alight. but i'm extremly pissed and a certin person.L. the know who they are.

So party friday night i HALIFAX it's gonna be bomb. you all only wish you could come.

Maybe i nee new friends. becsethe onesi have appear to hate me rigt now. but feh. i have many people.

Day 5

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 00:40:58 GMT

ahaaha, awome day in school. left earlie for a hockey game i darthmouth ony 5 of us showed up so we srimmgd wth the Dahmouth team. it was funny as hell. Dive home tooook foreverrrrrr in he traffc. soany acidents too. we got snow :) YAY!!!!

Day 4 'Con't'

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 01:51:12 GMT

Today, December 3rd 9:49PM (at night) on sunday in 2006 am called me a good friend.

Day 4

Sun, 03 Dec 2006 20:37:29 GMT

Late night last night and earlie morning today.

Had game. NS vs. HSM i normally play for NS but today i played for HSM. We lost 7-1 i had 65 shots (which is an 89.3 save rate.) and the NS G. only had 7. muhaahahah. i think i did better lol Potluck after the game then into the gym. got smashed in the face with a felt ring (which hurt) By At. Then after it was home. Now com. natta for he rest of the day. my time to relax.

Day3

Sun, 03 Dec 2006 20:32:45 GMT

Ahahaha, Fucking good night. S i can actually have fun, which is a plus.

Befor acution startedish time.
sold 50/50's with the peps and you know my sales pitch was awsomei had perple buy like 20$$$$$$ worth thats fucking 52 tickets. welok maybe it was only one prson but they did buy.lol.
During auction. Perented one product. 1!! out of like 135 some. and others had to everything else part of being a senior i guess. lol. drew the girs bathroom door i got that board.lol. didn't use the elastice.
Almost 9:00. V. Ah. M. At. & me decided to spend money till we's got a F.T. (French Tickler)lol. if yo don't know what thatis i am sorry for your loss lol. then we were rushed out the door. got one on the second try. lol
After the auction.
Went to a hotel.and its not what you guys are thinking. It was the whiole tem and we talked about 'stuff' and played games. then the whole rooster thingy. lol. fuck. i can't tell you about it but it was awsome.

Day 2

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 01:56:42 GMT

As i didn't tell you yesterday i know have an elastic round my wrist that I will use to help me rid my negitavity. good news i only had to use it 7 times today. i think it might be working.

After we lost our game today i didn't allow my self to start putting myself down like normal. insted i jsut looked back on the game and thought about what happened and what i could do better next time.

Everyone views the world so wrong, i know i do that too, but i'm gonna change that for myself then try to change it for others.

This afternoon was super cool. I was helping with the education expo thingy at my school and I saw this collage that had what i wanted so i got information from it and everything.

So that is my 'Meaning-To-Life' for the next couple of years and it is also my insperation to complete high school.

I have also changed the music on my MP3 player to stuff that would make me hyper and such. which it totally a change from the sad depressing stuff i had on it.

Day 1.

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 19:56:55 GMT

So, today I decided, after persenting the powerpoint w/ danielle to the clm class and then again to the D block clm class, that maybe i can fix this all. so here is my promice to write in this everyday how i'm feeling and what been buggin me insted of keeping it all in and getting really pissed off. So maybe after about a couple of months of this i'll be able to determine the whole problem. I'll let you know the results. untill then you can follow along my new journey. lol.

ehhhhh

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 20:28:15 GMT

Why is it that anger is so easy to feel.
Why is it that people are so obsorbed in themselves they really don't realize what their doing to others.
Why do humans suck?

You guys

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 19:32:54 GMT

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Fri, 22 Sep 2006 11:06:18 GMT

You know, know matter how hard you try or how much you don't try, either way everything always goes wrong. It's making me quite mad. And then there's when your trying to talk to someone about something that involves them and their all like ' i'm going back in there' and then they just walk away. Do you know how hurt that can make someone. It's just showing that you don't even care. I"m really starting to see the one who care and the ones who don't.

Wow

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 01:40:45 GMT

Wow. today's event were a bit weird. Not like everyday isn't weird. It's just that. you had to be there and see if. or it might appear to you as not believable. maybe some of you have heard of demons and spirts and quija boards and being possessed. well that was my night. the whole Videotaping someone being possesed and have demonds in them. and twitching like mad. I like it. Like i would take up a carrer in this feild. i'm just not totally sure about it cuz well. i do get paraniod quickly and alrready i'm loking over my shoulder and making sure nothing's following me. cuz i can sence spirts.Now that video isn't allowed to be seen by anyone. cuz that was the rule made befor this began. so in that case i shouoldn't even be talking about it. but who's gonna read this. expect those you are really into this stuff. like me. so it all started silently and then out of know where 'she' {the one possessed} just twitches like she was shoved by imangary hands and clutches her stomach. as if that's were it's all comming from. we would have posted our stupid video's of skateboarding on youtube.com {that's my mention to the site which means you have to go look at it now} but the Videocamcorder doesn't pulg into computers. {CRAP} it would have been good too. but i'm out for now people
Peace
Bye

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 16:55:45 GMT

lucky is a man who is the first love of a woman, but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man

"Kick, push, kick, push, kick, push, coast, and away they roll."
Skateboarding IS fun, and a great adrenalin rush. I love it.

My previous mood from the last post is dying down a bit, cuz i've found a way to get out my rebelness that people said I have. So now i sk8board. Just to be able to step onto that board and fell the wheels under my feet roll and carry me down the road, it's just awesome.

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 00:45:23 GMT

this. THIS. make me angry. THIS ISN'T ME
why am i like this now. WHY?

last night. i wanted to go outside and have a smoke. that's not me. what's happened to me.

What's happening my sudden craving to smoke. my wanting to get drunk. sudden urge to just run from home. and never come back. To just throw what the world gave me back in it's face and say screw it all.

I HATE IT!! I HATE ME!.

they were right when they said i'd never amount to anything.

I'm a walking disaster.

My body, mind and spirit wanna say goodbye to the world. I just can't. For one person.no, 2. they would be devastated.

A third who i know could care less, would blame them self. And the one who always blames things on them self.

But the problem is clear. which is why this might be my last post for a while till i get this all straightened out.

I wonder...

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 00:17:40 GMT

I wonder... why exactly do we, humans, always run when things get to hard to deal with? Is it part of our code, as being human.

Why is it that people will say anything to build up their ego. But when something comes up they run away? back down?
Are we just afraid of failing,or looking ridicules in front of people.

Something awesome will happen tomorrow, if you act upon what you said, and do what you've wanted to do.
So stop running. Face the world. Accept it for what it is, and cherish that fact.

You alone can't change the world. But with help you can impact lives of others. Be a role model for someone, do the right thing, and don't just talk actually put what you've said into action.

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS

Spanish-ness

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 00:51:15 GMT

.so. my febal attempets to learn spanish are being put in place. and i can't help but think how this is gonna go over with some people. but i leard my first sentance. so here it is

-hablo inglés. whoot be proud of me. the first thing i've done right.

Cept making that 122 dollars last week. lol.

Ok So Here It Is.

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 22:25:51 GMT

My Boring Life That May Have Came To Life A Bit. Or Not. In The Last Week
- My Boyfriend Of 4 Months Dumped Me
- Lindsay Left The Country And Went To Germany {with out me!}
- Cassie Was Possessed
- I Have Been Trying So Hard To Ignoring My Family
But the best thing yet. I got a vibrating Light saber from my friend cassie. And i must say it's the friggen best. I cherish it so much that I refuse to let my brother hold it. Well i don't let him hold anything anyway. But yeah. I will get a picture of it and post it next time.
I'm Out For Now.
Peace
-Manda